Fire Starter

Hi Everyone!  I hope your Monday isn’t treating you too poorly.  I am a little tired today after a long weekend but things aren’t all bad.  I’m going to see Gavin Degraw in Birmingham tonight with friends so that should be fun.  Cassandra and I went out of town this weekend for her brother’s wedding.  We always have a fun time together so it had a little road-trip vibe to it.  The wedding was pretty and Cassandra and I finally made our marriage official.  I’m only joking.  Apparently we kid about our common law marriage so much a couple people didn’t think it’s a joke.  Thanks to my parents for watching our dog. He now has a Great Dane as a BFF. I haven’t weighed in a while and I’m feeling pretty gross about myself lately.  I tried not to completely lose it this weekend.  The only options were fast food so I chose a turkey burger with no mayo and no cheese once and then a grilled chicken sandwich the same way another time to try to avoid burgers every meal but that doesn’t mean I was good.  Cassandra’s mom makes the best chocolate chip cookies so those were definitely my weakness this weekend.  I don’t know why I can’t start a fire under my butt and find some motivation.  I spent the day yesterday coming up with a little bit of a different plan. I am so burned out on counting things that I’m hoping altering the plan will help.  I know what I should and should not eat.  I’m just hoping I can become stronger over the next few weeks.  It would be really nice to lose a little weight before the summer.  With all the travel I’m doing, it’s getting so hard to do but I have to just keep trucking…discouraged or not. I have this recurring dream where Jordan and I go to see a play.  Rather than sitting with the audience, we sit on a ledge, high above the rest of the room.  Every time, I am sitting there, fine, then I want to get down from the ledge.  Each time, I try to climb down but I’m too terrified to move.  I’m always scared I’m going to fall.  I wake up with so much anxiety after this dream.  I’m always worried I’m going to fail.  Gaining weight is my biggest fear.  So, I’m with you guys.  I’ll do my best to do things I know I’m capable of doing.  I have a doctor’s appointment Wednesday that I’ll have to weigh for and I’m sure he will be on my butt about losing weight so that should be a big ball of fun. 

I don’t have a recipe but I want to share some products with you.  I may have shared these in the past but the combination of ingredients makes a nice, low fat lunch.  First, you can always find light bread or buns at the grocery store.  To me, they taste great.  Also, I love Sargento’s newer line of thinly sliced cheese.  The serving size is three slices but I usually just eat one.  It’s not low fat so it has full flavor but it’s sliced so thin that it’s only 45 calories.  I am obsessed with Oscar Mayer’s Carving Board chicken.  It’s moist and has the best flavor.  It reminds me of the leftovers you get from the Thanksgiving turkey.  Finally, I love mayo and since it’s so bad for you, I never get to have it.  In my opinion, the French Onion Dip from Oikos is the best thing to spread on a sandwich instead of mayo.  It’s made from Greek yogurt and it has a lot of flavor.  I’d much rather use that than fat free or low fat mayo.  I’m not a huge yogurt fan and I can’t eat it in big servings but it works nicely as a sandwich spread or veggie dip.

Jordan and I are going to Nashville this weekend and I’m so excited!  We are seeing Demi Lovato on Saturday and Cher on Monday night.  It should be a nice little getaway. 

There won’t be a blog next week because of the trip so I will write again on April 7th.  By that point, I will have been to 4 concerts, a play and another wedding.  I’ll also be getting ready to go to Atlanta the following weekend.  See how impossible it is to diet with all this stuff going on?  I know it’s possible.  I just have to find some sort of inner strength that I didn’t know existed.

Have a nice couple weeks!

Bye!

“I’m a wild card, I’m about to take my aim

You better watch out, watch out…” Fire Starter-Demi Lovato