Independence Weigh

Good Monday To All Of You!!! This week is special for a lot of reasons.  I’m happy to get a day off in the middle of the week  and celebrate a few different occasions.  First, I must tell you that I am mostly recovered from the meltdown that I had due to my scale experience this week.  I knew that I would be in bad shape because I had eaten too much while I was away for work.  However, when I got on the scale Friday morning, I was up almost 10 pounds from my lowest weight.  I lost it.  I am so tired.  I work incredibly hard when it comes to exercise and this was a huge blow to my already faltering confidence. 

If you have ever lost a large amount of weight, you know how terrifying it is to think about gaining it back.  I am especially sensitive because I have lost and gained many times in my life…but I’ve never been down over 100 pounds.  By the end of the weekend, my weight had smoothed out a bit and I was less than 7 pounds up which is still bad but certainly better than 10 pounds.  I have never been more scared this weekend of what path I was headed down in terms of my weight loss.  I am still worried and at sort of a loss.  I am trying something new this week where I eat every 2 hours.  My goal is to eat even tinier portions but spaced out every couple hours so my stomach shrinks and I don’t go hungry.  It’s so important to eat and not starve yourself. I have heard it’s important to have food in your belly when you exercise and I rarely do so I’m going to be changing that as well.   I am also going to have to work on not binging when I am cheating.  This is by far my worst trait.  I am finding it hard to break a 28 year habit of not only finishing my plate but making another and finishing that too.  I am going to do some research on plateau tips.  Certainly, if anyone has words of wisdom or advice, I’d love to take it.  I have come way too far but I don’t like my attitude.  I haven’t waivered at all in exercise but when I gain, it makes it that much harder to put on my workout clothes.  I am not giving up.  Other than the pounds I’m up, I have lost 115 pounds.  This is probably my greatest accomplishment in life.  I need help, though.  So, if nothing else, send good vibes.  I know I’m not the only one going through this and I know there are way worse things in life but when I turn down hanging out with my friends or say no to holiday food or I walk 4 miles on a Saturday after a week of running and the scale keeps going up, up, up, discouraged doesn’t even begin to really describe how I feel.

Now that I’ve sufficiently provided a nice, uplifting, pity party to start your Monday off, I thought the least I could do is give you a recipe.  This is a no frills, simple but yummy idea for lunch or dinner.  Sometimes, simplicity is nice.  If you want a little something different from a plain turkey sandwich for lunch or something quick to throw together with a salad for dinner, this turkey wrap works nicely.  I like making sandwiches with low fat, high fiber tortillas.  It’s a little bit of a change and I love sandwiches.  I used the bacon that you can buy pre-cooked to make it even easier.  I enjoyed this and make variations of it all the time.

As you all know, this Wednesday is July the 4^th and I wanted to take this opportunity to thank the men and women of the armed services past and present for what they do! I hope everyone enjoys their time off and makes sure to take a moment to think about the sacrifices that soldiers and their families make on a daily basis.

Another major event taking place this week (tomorrow) is my Dad’s 50^th birthday!  Happy Birthday, Dad! I hope you have an amazing day!

I am hoping for a much better report next week from the scale.  At the very least, I don’t want the number going up.  My head may explode soon if I don’t see better results.  I had a good weekend and I plan on having a an even better week.  There should be no cheating in my future until the weekend of the 14^th when I go to Six Flags with my brother.  Until then, I’m hoping the heat, the exercise and the eating habits make for a nice return on the scale.

Have an awesome week!

Bye!

“It’s bad when you annoy yourself…” Don’t Let Me Get Me-Pink