In a bad mood...

I keep thinking today is Friday and then realize it’s not and almost have a breakdown every time. I don’t know if I have mentioned this before but I am in grad school to get my MFA in writing and I am graduating in November. I knew that it would come quick but I LITERALLY choked out loud a few minutes ago when I saw some of my deadlines. Just typing about it is making me nervous and nauseated so I will try to move on. I am going to dinner and a movie tonight with Stacey and have a football game on Saturday and then other than that…I guess I have to work on school. I am having a hard time because on one hand, I want to keep going and get another Masters or a PhD because eventually I would love to teach college but then again…I really want a break. I’ve been in school for over 20 years and just want to work with no deadlines. I’m afraid if I don’t go now though I will work my life away. I guess I just have some things to think about.
This morning, I got up to exercise. You may not find that impressive but usually, I don’t get up on Thursday’s because of trivia the night before but I decided to roll my butt out of bed anyway at 5:45 and go swimming. I was/am SO exhausted. I haven’t been sleeping that well and so I was none too pleased to get a bathing suit and towel on and go swimming. When I got there, I walked into the pool area and the whole place was filled with smoke…I guess there was a wire burning or something…I don’t know but it meant I couldn’t swim. I would have ridden the bike or something but I had flip flops on and a bathing suit. I was SO livid. When I got home I did some crunches and lifted some weights, showered and got back in the bed.
I have been lifting these little 3 pound weights every night. I don’t really know what I’m doing. I just know that I want to get rid of my elbow boobs (my mother calls them cabbage patch elbows). Either way, I have a difficult time figuring out how to work off the fat that hangs over my hips, elbows and ankles. It’s like the fat has ownership over those parts of my body. It doesn’t want to leave. I mean I get it…you’ve been there for years. You wouldn’t want to move from a place you’ve lived for 25 years just because the neighborhood is under construction. I’d be willing to pay it though…a lot…if it would just get the heck out of dodge.
Anyway, I guess I will give swimming another go tomorrow morning. A friend of mine is trying to convince me to do a 5K run/walk in a couple of weeks and I’m just not sure I’m ready for all of that…especially since they are so early. I just haven’t grasped the concept yet of paying someone to walk that far. I mean…if you want a charitable donation…just ask. I’m thinking about it but the forecast isn’t great…I’m just being honest. I can’t even keep up with my mom in a 2 mile walk when she is SUPPOSEDLY walking slow.